Truthful, blunt, naive, playful, he is an eternal outcast doomed to travel from town to town, from century to century attracting hopeless idealists and free souls. My conversation with Grok and recent visualization revealed a hidden message he had for me after all these years. And the message made me cry…
Some fatal attraction draws me down into the abysses of thought, down into those innermost recesses which never cease to fascinate the strong. I shall spend my life gazing at the ocean of art, where others voyage or fight; and from time to time, I’ll entertain myself by diving for those green and yellow shells that nobody will want.
“Deus Aderit” is based on the real numinous experience I had in my dream years ago. It was absolutely ineffable and indescribable but yet I felt compelled to describe it. Of course, it is a very pale shadow of what I experienced.
“To paint what we see before us is a different art from painting what we see within.” Symbolic painting of unconscious content makes the patient creatively independent, turns fantasy into deliberate act, invests it with reality. Once freed from wretched states by working a symbolical picture, they return to it reliably. The ego becomes object, not master.
A recurring motif in an artist’s work is the psyche knocking—sometimes pounding—on consciousness. It signals an activated archetype or complex demanding integration. Track it, amplify with myths, dialogue: raw terror → confrontation → transformation → fade/disappearance as integrated. The repetition is the healing attempt.
For the thin-walled, the lifelong task is turning overwhelming archetypal affect (base metal) into conscious symbol and meaning (gold). Active imagination, holding opposites, ego-relativization, shadow work, circumambulation of the Self—these are the vessels. Failure floods; success channels. Jung’s Red Book succeeded; others drowned.
Artists often show reduced latent inhibition (leaky cognitive filter), thinner mental boundaries, and higher openness—letting unconscious material flood in for originality, but raising flood-risk to disorder. Creativity and vulnerability share the same permeability. Low inhibition + high integration = gift; without the latter, overwhelm.
Depression is not mere morbidity; it forces the psyche to confront itself. “The melancholy is the forerunner of a new birth.” Neurosis blocks creativity; conscious engagement with the unconscious (via art) can integrate it and release renewal. The creative urge often yokes everything—even health—to its service.
The tortured-artist stereotype exaggerates, but statistics don’t lie: creatives face suicide rates 1.5–10× higher than average, driven by mood disorders, impulsivity, rumination, and rejection/instability. The link isn’t causal glamour—it’s vulnerability from permeable traits that let more in, both beauty and abyss. Awareness helps, but the disparity persists.
Although my patients occasionally produce artistically beautiful things that might very well be shown in modern “art” exhibitions, I nevertheless treat them as completely worthless when judged by the canons of real art. As a matter of fact, it is essential that they should be considered worthless, otherwise my patients might imagine themselves to be artists, and the whole point of the exercise would be missed.